keLLy'S inSanity

2 weeks

2010-03-19T20:41:00.000-07:00

2 weeks in Dilemma Team and i feel like my brain is totally drained out.. sama mo pa ang pasmadong kamay.. i'm trying to take it easy but i just can't..type..type..type.. gamit na gamit na si keyboard.. lol

rest day na...i will rest and watch TV..pilipinas got talent tonight.. weehhh babaw ng kaligayahan..

plans.. plans... I have a lot of plans..

i'm tired.. I hope it rains today.. ohh puhlezzz lord.. give us some rain.. it's so hoooottt in cebu... i miss the rainy days in leyte..ohhh leyte.. i miss a lot of persons in leyte.. my mom, my bro, and... and...and... i'm not missing him.. i just miss the good old days... joy ride, food trip, fights, and senti moments... huwawwww... time heals but it leaves scars.. echozz..

learn from the past and look ahead..

tama... tama.. tama..

what's important is NOW because it's all I got..

it's all i care for..

NOW that i am happy... now that i feel complete.. now that i almost have everthing that i wanted..now that i have him.. chorz!

oh sha sha.. gonna rest na...

the 3 am blues

2010-02-28T10:44:00.000-08:00

it's 3AM.. wow... i find it very difficult to digest the topics in our training today... dilemma is so nosebleed talaga.. :( i'm so sleepy because i'm not used to graveyard shift. if there's anything that i want to do now, I WANT TO SLEEP.
3 more hours and i'll get the doze that i badly need.. hayy... nesting tomorrow for Dilemma.. goodluck to me.. i hope i resolve all the cases that will be assigned to me..
Kaya mo yan KeLLy!!! ajah!!!

A summary of February

2010-02-25T19:13:00.000-08:00

These are few of the things that happened this February:
1. I went to MNL last feb 20 - 22. it was my first time to fly ALONE and I got really nervous during the check in process in Mactan, Cebu Intl Airport. LOL. It was the first flight out and I arrived at around 2:45AM at the airport. (excited) very early sa flight. hahaha.. 5J 428
2. I went to Enchanted Kingdom... unforgettable rides: space shuttle and anchors away... wow....
3. My BF and i watched pyromusical competition in MOA.. U.K. and China ang nag tunggali.. ehehe
4. I was hired for Dilemma Cebu and will be in 3 mos. probation.. I hope i get regularized as SME... (crossing fingers.. echoz).. Take note.. I was 20 mins late on the first day of training..hehehe ;)
5. I'm having fun in Cebu.. yey!!!! I'm hoping for promo fares para makapag travel na naman.. yey!!!

missing him on a busy day

2010-01-05T23:33:00.000-08:00

this is my first entry.. an attempt to try blogging again.. sana mapanindigan.. i'm such a busy person..

thoughts of your ex are bothering me right now.. comparisons.. feelings of ugliness and never-ending insecurities..

questions.. questions.. questions...
if you really love me and if what we have is bound to last...

i miss you.. i miss you... what's 4 days and 3 nts? really not enough to fill out the days that we're not together.. the phone calls.. the texts.. i hate being away from you.. i hate that i value my job.. that i can't leave it and just be with you..

i'm scared.. getting really, really scared of losing you.. the fear..is just growing each day.. fear that our relationship might not work..

we both have different goals.. different dreams... i just hope that we meet somewhere in between..

i love you.. i love you.. and i never meant to love you.. we never meant to love each other.. we just met on the loneliest day of our lives.. the desperate days of being heart-broken.. the days of mending our broken hearts.. the moving on days..

i love you... i love you.. that's all i care right now..